*cough*cough*

I am like a car.  If I get oil changes, rotate tires and keep the car running by putting in gas, I am perfectly fine.  But when I start to forget about maintenance and stop putting gas in, I stop performing as well as I had before.

When I start to stress, I tend to stop taking care of myself too.  Eating three meals becomes less of a priority and on many occasions, forgotten.  I stop touching my phone and social media is never checked.  If I have an assignment due, meetings to attend or fundraiser to schedule, I tell myself I MUST get it done.  My main focus becomes school or ASB or Class of 2017.  I put aside nourishing myself and when I actually have time to, I'm either too tired or it's way too late to be eating.  There are times where I'll sleep for two hours then have to wake up ready to function for the new day.  I work myself too hard and when I really need to be healthy, my body is exhausted.

I am one to scold people for skipping breakfast because in my opinion, it seriously is the most important meal of the day.  But lately, I haven't been eating breakfast.  I'll warm up my food during fourth period but I get so busy I forget to eat it.  Then I have to warm up my lunch again and even then I don't finish all off my food.  At night time I get home late or I'm just so concerned about homework that I won't eat dinner,  Sometimes my mom will remind me to eat, but I ignore her and make her put dinner in the fridge.

The past few weeks, I've been sneezing more and my nose has been running.  I have upper respiratory allergies, so it's kind of normal.  I just have to take an additional amount of medicine at night and I SHOULD be good to go.  Last night, I had a dry cough,  This morning my throat hurt extremely.  When I went to school I texted my mother "I feel like I'm dying." She wanted to pull me out of class but I said no.  After school, my auntie took me to the doctors and my pediatrician told me it's my asthma.  Asthma causes me to cough and coughing causes me to have a headache and having a headache makes me want to pass out.

Currently, I am running on a fever of 102.1.  I am on a number of medicines.  I am not eating because I do not have an appetite.  I try to sleep but when I wake up I am reminded of the numerous homework assignments that need to get finished.  I am in tears because I am in SO MUCH pain.  I am honestly a hot mess.

Finals are next week, I can't afford to miss school.  I'm stuck between caring for myself and caring for my grade.